Building myself and destroying my self-made self!

Its quite interesting, it took me I dont know how many years to BUILD myself UP, to realize today, its all bullshit. I buil up a npretty nice illusion. And now I have to de-construct. Obviously, I am not even saying that with any bitterness, its more like I am amazed, that what I thaught I was building was me, and that now, I realize its all a wonderful image, but to get anywhere close to a higher state of consciousness,, all you need is silence, joy and your essence. At least thats how I understand it today. If you are in contact with your essence, you are in contact with the universal essence as well, you are in contact with creation, and creation IS, simply, but it really is wonderful. And we each have it in each one of us, we are simply not taught on how to get to it. We pile up crap, (guilt, fear,etc)and then, well then undo it all.

I definitely see that I would not even have come to this realization without having gone through everything I did in my life, and for that I am grateful. The only thing we ever are guilty of, is repeating the same mistake. So, learn!

I am learning,and the more I let go of the crap i've build on top of my self, the more I love myself, and the more I love everyone around me, especially Cuauhtli that I am sharing my life with.